Stupid Hearts...

I kinda feel like I've done everything backwards in my life up to this point. I feel in love with the first boy I ever dated as a Senior in high school. I was seventeen years old and thought my life couldn't get any better. We went off to college together and were engaged by our Sophomore year. I remember being so excited. Looking back now, I don't know what in the world I was thinking. How did I think we were going to make that work? We still had two years of college ahead of us. Where were we going to live? Who was going to pay the bills? These were the questions that should've been rolling around in my head. However, all I remember thinking was how lucky I was. I felt so blessed to have found "the one" at such a young age. I thought I was so lucky to be able to marry my first love. Things changed, I changed, about a year and a half later I broke off the engagement. We remained friends and eventually started dating again. I was happy, but something just wasn't the same. Fast forward a year and here I am. Single.

I know everything happens for a reason. I know he was not "the one" for me. I know all of these things, but that doesn't make what I'm going through right now any easier. Every time I get on Facebook lately it seems another good friend of mine has either gotten engaged, or married. It's like those stupid hearts are mocking me. So and so went from being in a relationship to engaged, or so and so went from being engaged to married. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy for them. I feel guilty even saying out loud for the whole world to hear how those little pink hearts make me feel.

What's really bothering me is that it feels like everyone else my age is moving in a different direction from me. I am going backwards. To be honest...it stinks. While I was happily engaged, everyone else was dating, or single. Now that I am single and figuring out life on my own for the very first time, everyone else is getting married. I know it will happen for me. When it does it will be beautiful and perfect. I have to be patient and wait.

Anyone else out there hate those stupid pink hearts?

Sorry for complaining...

It's Been a LOOOONNNG Time Girls!

Oh my word ladies it has been a loooonnggg time. Over an entire month since my last post to be exact. That is just sad. I get on blogger almost everyday to read everyone else's blog posts, but lately I've been neglecting my own little piece of this bloggy world.

There really isn't too much to report. Still single. Still teaching. Still watching lots of football. Those three little sentences pretty much sum up my life right now.

To catch you up on ever things that's been going on in my life the past month, I thought I would do a little picture post. Bear with me here as you scroll through a TON of pictures.

The sweetest little girl in my class came up to my desk the other day and handed me this sweet little not. Apparently in her eyes, I'm a pageant princess. I couldn't care less about that. I'm more excited about the role model part. I have the best job in the world, I get the opportunity to influence young minds and shape the future. I pray each day that I am doing what is best for my children. Hopefully I am someone worth modeling.

I was so excited to receive my very first apple. I feel like such a real teacher now!

I have a student in my class whose father played football at Ole Miss and is in the Ole Miss Hall of Fame. He was telling me that his parents were going to the Hall of fame reunion and they were going to see Archie Manning. I jokingly said, "You be sure to get me an autograph". He said, " Okay Miss. Holley I sure will". Boy did he ever. He brought this into me the following Monday.

This little baby is the new love of my life. Ladies allow me to introduce you to the Erin Condren life planner. I did not pay the full price for this little charm. Shipping was free and I had a gift card. So, I paid next to nothing for it. After using this planner for a few weeks now I have realized that I would be willing to pay full price for it the next time. Totally worth it ladies.

I took my adorable baby brother to his first Ole Miss game. He never misses a game on television, but he has never seen a game in person. I have been trying to convince him to go to a game with me for forever. He finally caved and went with me. We may have lost, but we sure had lots of fun!

Look who I found! Two of my favorite friends! Miss the boys an awful lot.

Hotty Toddy! Go Rebs!

Family Campfire! Nothing better than roasting marshmellows with your family circled around a good camp fire. Man how I love Fall.

Shira Lani came for a visit. It was so nice to see her. We talk on the phone several times a week, but there is nothing like spending time together in the same place. I miss my sweet friend.

I've been working on redoing my room for some time now. When I moved back home after graduating, my poor little room looked the same as it did when I was a senior in high school. Let's just say my style has changed a little since I was a seventeen year old. Here's the finished product. I'm loving it!

Who's ready for so high school football? We are!! I love spending time with my sweet mini me at all my brother's games. She sure keeps my life interesting!

I was one happy sister this Friday because my brother started in his very first varsity football game. I was so proud of him I was beaming. I have been watching this child pay ball since he was seven. Watching him do what he loves brings a smile to my face every time. Love him more than I can tell you!

Poor thing woke up this morning with the stomach bug. Send healing prayers up for him please. Praying that no one else in the family gets it.

Enjoy your Sunday ladies!

Weekend Recap

Let's take a second to recap what has happened this weekend. In a word...football. Having a brother who has always been very active in sports, this isn't anything new. Ever since my brother was seven and I was twelve, we have been traveling all around the state watching him play. Baseball, football, or basketball. You pick. This weekend happened to be filled with football.

In the south Fall means one thing. Football. I wouldn't have it any other way.

Friday we headed to New Albany to watch my brother. Of course we had to take a few pre-game pics. Lucy was being a little diva. She was not happy about being left at home, so she punished me by not looking at the camera.

After much trying and several pictures of her not looking at the camera, we finally got a good one.

On the way to the game we got behind this guy....

Apparently, he thinks he is cool. I however thought he looked like a looser.

Once we got to the game, we cheered on our Warriors. It was a normal game until this happened....

Apparently someone forgot to shut off the sprinkler system. Oops.

Pontotoc won the game and are now 3-0!!!! Go Warriors.

Saturday!!!! Hotty Toddy!!!! I was so ready to head back to my alma mater and cheer on my Rebs. I know this sounds corny, but it truly did feel like heading home. I sure have missed that place. So many memories and fun times shared with sweet friends. Ole Miss is for life. You never leave Ole Miss.

Just so you know, this is what happens to your puppy doesn't want you to leave.

Pre-game pic with Lucy!

Sweet Shira!

EMILY!!!! I sure have missed this girl!

Joey!

I don't know what I would do without these two

Sunday was filled with work...blah, blah , blah....

This was my Sunday to-do list. I am happy to report that I finished everything on my list except for #6. That on is being taken care of right now.

Today, I plan on laying in bed with Lucy and watching the One Tree Hill marathon on soap net. So basically I'm being a lazy bum. For today, that's totally okay with me!

Have a safe and happy holiday ladies!

What I'm Loving Wednesday!!

Well hello again ladies and gents...that is if I have any male readers. It's Wednesday and you know what that means. Time for What I'm Loving Wednesday with Jamie Here's what I'm loving this Wednesday!

1. It's finally hump day!! Woohoo! Is it just me, or has this week seemed so SLOW?

2. PAY DAY!!!! Need I say more? This first year teacher has been mighty poor. Scratch that, even after recieving my paycheck I'm still poor. :) We don't do this job for the money!

3. There is nothing I love more than reading all my student's sweet notes.

4. Hotty Toddy! I am ready for football! Saturday can not get here fast enough. I sure have missed the grove.

5. Teacher Appreciation Breakfast. Yum Yum! I'm not loving all the calories I consumed though.

6. Erin Condren Life Planners. Normally, I would never buy a planner that cost 50.00 plus 11.00 shipping. However, I got mine for 26.00! Score!

7. Football games with this sweet girl are ten times more fun!

8. It's finally September...come on Fall! I'm ready for pumpkins, leaves, family, football, halloween, thanksgiving, and cooler weather.

9. I'm loving life. Simple as that. My life has changed so much over the past few months. I'm just enjoying the ride. My life is blessed beyond measure. I have a great family, set of friends, and 48 sweet children that bring joy to my life on a daily basis.

I hope you are loving your Wednesday as much as I am.

All things Girly!!!!

You know you are a girl when you stand in Wal-Mart staring at the nail polish for twenty minutes. Can we just take a minute to talk about my love of Essie polish. I will never buy anything else but Essie, or OPI. Girls, I have pretty much tried them all and those two are the best by far.

I felt a little bit like a fourth grader with my multi-colored fingers. You know I have to try all of my favorites on. They never look the same on as they do in the bottle.

Tonight I am having a full on girly night. On the agenda...

1. paint my nails....check

2. read Instyle's fall fashion guide while listening to my girl Sara Evans :)

3. bubble bath

4. curl up in my freshly washed sheets to watch keeping up with the Kardashians.

School starts back tomorrow. Excited to teach my little ones how to add and estimate whole numbers up to five digits tomorrow.

Until next time...

Honest Post

I try to be as open and honest as possible on my blog. I don't like hiding things that are going on in my life. If you have noticed, I have been a little absent lately. This is greatly due to the fact that I haven't wanted to be honest about my life right now.

About a month and a half ago I ended my relationship with my boyfriend of five years. This was not an easy thing for me to do. Ultimately, I had to follow my heart and do what would make me happy.

I feel like a whole my chapter of my life has opened up. Everyday I add a new page to the chapter and that is exciting to me. I love my job, my sweet fourth graders are the lights of my life. Being a first year teacher is very hard. I am completely wiped by the end of the day and I'm usually in bed by 8:30, 9:00 at the latest. Glamourous I know.

My life has changed so much over the past few months. I feel like a completely different person. I know I am. It has been a hard road, but I know God has a plan for me.

This little verse sits on the window seal behind my desk, the other day I was leaving work in a hurry and I knocked it off. I was so mad because I was in a hurry and I didn't want to sit all of my things down to pick it up. It had been a horrible day and I was not in a great mood. As I reached down to pick it up, I realized what it was. I couldn't help but smile as I placed it back in the window. All I could think was how much my God knew I needed a little encouragement at that moment. Maybe this will encourage you as well.

Until next time...

I'm a TEACHER!!!!

I have been waiting for this my entire life. The day that I would finally be a teacher. As far back as I can remember I have known that I wanted to teach. I remember playing teacher in my bedroom as a little girl. I would lay papers all over my bed pretending I had passed them out to my students. Many hours I stood in front of my little dry erase board teaching my imaginary students.

Thursday, August 4, 2011 I became a real teacher. I did not have to pretend anymore. My dreams had become a reality. I had real children in my classroom. It just makes me want to cry. I worked so hard in college to learn the things I needed to so that I could be the best teacher I could be for my children. This past Thursday, I put my knowledge into practice.

I was very overwhelmed that first day. First of all I was running late. You see, I had set my alarm for 5:00 and I did not wake up until 6:30. To say that I went into panic mode would be a major understatement. I threw my hair up in a ponytail, threw on some clothes, put a can of soup in my bag, and ran out the door. It wasn't until I was ten minutes down the road that I checked to see if my top matched my pants. To my relief, they did. I pretty much cried the whole way there. I was so mad that my alarm didn't go off, I didn't get to take a shower, and I was going to be late for the first day of school. This would only happen to me.

Once I finally got to the school I was able to pull myself together and get everything in place before my students came. One by one my sweet fourth graders came in my room. They took their seats and we began the day. The day went smoothly and we all survived. For that I was thankful.

Friday went well and Monday will be here before I know it. This weekend I have been resting my aching feet, grading papers, fixing my seating chart, and working on my lesson plans. Being a teacher is a full time job. A teachers job is never done.

Back to planning now. I will post pictures tomorrow. I don't have time at the moment.